its just -mEh lEr -Nii '.

2008-05-20T23:16:00.003+08:00

I don't know if anyone of you will ever realise that there's a new post here instead of my new blog address but do bookmark / favourite me ok!? It pains me to know that you're going through all the hassle.

LOL. wtf

2007-07-11T19:07:00.000+08:00

I'VE MOVED!
click here!
do remember to re-link me! ((:

2007-06-26T14:39:00.000+08:00

The Ghost Shit
The kind where you feel shit come out, see shit on the toilet paper, but there's no shit in the bowl.

The Clean Shit
The kind where you feel shit come out, see shit in the bowl, but there's no shit on the toilet paper.

The Wet Shit
You wipe your ass fifty times and it still feels unwiped. So you end up putting toilet paper between your ass and your underwear so you don't ruin them with those dreadful skid marks.

The Second Wave Shit
This shit happens when you've finished, your pants are up to your knees, and you suddenly realize you have to shit some more.

The Brain Hemorrhage Through Your Nose Shit Also known as "Pop a Vein in Your Forehead Shit".
You have to strain so much to get it out that you turn purple and practically have a stroke.

The "Gee, I Really Wish I Could Shit" Shit
The kind where you want to shit, but even after straining your guts out, all you can do is sit on the toilet, cramped and farting.

The Wet Cheeks Shit Also known as the "Power Dump".
That's the kind that comes out of your ass so fast that your butt cheeks get splashed with the toilet water.

The Liquid Shit
That's the kind where yellowish-brown liquid shoots out of your butt, splashes all over the side of the toilet bowl and, at the same time, chronically burns your tender poop-chute.

The Mood Enhancer
This shit occurs after a lengthy period of constipation, thereby allowing you to be your old self again.

The Aftershock Shit
This shit has an odour so powerful than anyone entering the vicinity within the next seven hours is affected.

The "Honeymoon's Over" Shit
This is any shit created in the presence of another person.

The Groaner
A shit so huge it cannot exit without vocal assistance.

The Floater
Characterized by its floatability, this shit has been known to resurface after many flushings.

The Ranger
A shit which refuses to let go. It is usually necessary to engage in a rocking or bouncing motion, but quite often the only solution is to push it away with a small piece of toilet paper.

The Phantom Shit
This appears in the toilet mysteriously and no one will admit to putting it there.

The Snake Charmer
A long skinny shit which has managed to coil itself into a frightening position - usually harmless.

The Pebbles-From-Heaven Shit
An adorable collection of small turds in a cluster, often a gift from God when you actually can't shit.

Shitzopherenia
Fear of shitting - can be fatal!

The Power Dump Shit
The kind that comes out so fast, you barely get your pants down when you're done.

The Liquid Plumber Shit
This kind of shit is so big it plugs up the toilet and it overflows all over the floor.

The Spinal Tap Shit
The kind of shit that hurts so much coming out, you'd swear it's got to be coming out sideways.

The Porridge Shit
The type that comes out like toothpaste, and just keeps on coming. You have two choices: a) flush and keep going, or b) risk it piling up to your butt while you sit there helpless.

The "I Think I'm Turning Into A Bunny" Shit
When you drop lots of cute, little round ones that look like marbles and make tiny splashing sounds when they hit the water.

The "What The Hell Died In Here?" Shit Also sometimes referred to as "The Toxic Dump".
Of course you don't warn anyone of the poisonous bathroom odour. Instead, you stand innocently near the door and enjoy the show as they run out gagging and gasping for air.

The "I Just Know There's A Turd Still Dangling There" Shit
Where you just sit there patiently and wait for the last cling-on to drop off because if you wipe now, it's going to smear all over the place.

2007-04-04T02:25:00.000+08:00

i just got myself a hamster.

his name is bimbim pang (:

he has an orange house

and loves to run on his neon green wheel after hiding inside the food tray to stuff himself.

he adores my finger(s) and can't bear to get his teeth off them

However, i just found out he is slightly limp

..nevertheless i shall try to love him even more, like the people who love me for who i am despite my many shortcomings.

thank God for all these people and my hammie who taught me this precious lesson ((:

2007-03-29T14:34:00.000+08:00

I can honestly say that the decision to take up Geography as one of my A-level subjects was one made out of impulse. With full realisation of the painstaking efforts required to comprehend the topic, I still chose it--simply out of interest. Albeit my final result for this subject is not exceptional, and in fact less than satisfying; Geography has never made a greater impact on me!

I wasnt the most popular student—unmotivated with a headstrong attitude but my Geography tutor, Mr Christopher Chen saw beyond that; that I wasn’t all that bad and had a lot going for me if I was willing to take the extra step. He always made sure everybody knew that! His witty humour and candor during lessons appeal to students and made him stand out from the other teachers.

However, the unending failures in tests disheartened me and made my determination falter at the prospect of hardship. It was a tough period before the A-levels and family woes worsened it. Mr Chen sat down and we talked it through. It probably wasn’t the best speech of the year but it sure left a burning impression on me and restored my will to try, and just try harder.

Weeks ago, I met Mr Chen. Ashamed to see him after getting such substandard grades, I left after a few words. I messaged and apologised for my ungracious behaviour later. He replied, “You are my student and my friend regardless of what your grades are’’. These words really moved me and inspired me.

Henry Adam says it best, “A teacher affects eternity, he can never tell where his influence stops”. Mr Christopher Chen will remain a permanent fixture in my life, never to be obliterated. He is perhaps the best teacher anyone could learn from.

thanks mr Chen (:
videos of you threatening the class with the egyptian pole are still in my phone

you'd better submit that online appraisal!

2007-03-25T11:59:00.000+08:00

PISCES:. The Piece of ass

Caring and kind. Smart.

Center of attention. Too Sexy, DAMN IT.

Very high ### appeal.

Has the last word. The best to find, hardest to keep.

Fun to be around. Freak in the sheets.

Extremely weird but in a good way.

Super good in bed. Good Sense of Humor!!!

Thoughtful. A partner for life.

Always gets what he or she wants.

Loves to joke. Very popular.

Silly, fun and sweet..

2007-03-16T03:03:00.000+08:00

Highlights of the month:

1. my NEW computer--more, more and more crazy gaming sessions into the wee hours of the morning, rendering me too lazy to even update my otherwise totally stagnant blog.

2. the dreaded A level results. nothing fascinating to talk about. haha

3. IT'S OUR ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY! lovelove

4. my new handphone, now safe in the hands of Samsung customer service centre officers--not even used for one week. -.-

5. my newly made jiemei-- kelvin choo zhen tao! *cheers

6. the darn university applications.

and last but definitely not the least, a public appeal to all you peeps out there,
do donate to the Please Help Poor Melmel Charity Fund.

..your every cent can make a difference. Give generously

=]

2007-01-21T16:45:00.000+08:00

so i come home one day, happily chatting with the boyfriend and i realised that nobody is home except for the sister, who is already in lala land having fun with the z-monster. i shook her awake and enquire about the reason for my parents' absence.

and the conversation was something like this:

Me: eh, ma ma qu na li? (mama go where?)
Sis: orh.
Me (slightly annoyed) : HEY! i ask you where ma ma go?
Sis: orh!
Me (shakes and taps sister furiously): wei wei wei! wake up!! where ma ma go?!
Sis: ORH! wo dong! (i know!)
Me: (stunned silence)
Me (still persistent): ma ma never tell you where she go?
Sis: got.
Me: then? where she go?
Sis: i don't know!!

the above scenario was only the tip of the iceberg-- the dreary conversation lasted a good ten odd minutes and guess what?

i still didn't have the faintest idea where my parents went. HA!

random

2007-01-19T16:30:00.000+08:00

am updating my blog at work now. hahaha

just realised that a couple of months ago i was eagerly waiting for the 'A' levels to end, and all of a sudden, im hoping that im still schooling. ironic, ain't it? im sure there are others out there who feel this way too..

sucks to have a sucky computer that can't be fixed-- no new pictures, no new songs, etcetc
with the demise of my com, there goes my ipod too. bahhhh]

some random thoughts i've been having this week:
#1 i missed the feeling on the volleyball court-- where everything else doesn't matter
#2 so many people die everyday, unfortunately not certain people though
#3 speeding at 140km/h at 2 am is fun!
#4 i miss school :(

2007-01-10T18:16:00.000+08:00

this may be a little too late but HAPPY NEW YEAR peeps! (:

the new year has started but sadly there's no more school for me!
the typical meridian school life which i used to think to be boring and absolutely senseless has now become a memory etched in the innermost parts of my memories, never to be relived again.

1. the sleeping sessions during lectures
2. furiously copying down of chemistry notes
3. cao keng (ie. pretend) during tutorials, praying hard my blank fullscap paper(s) will go unnoticed
4. teasing of miss wong on every tuesday-- pretending to be lost in school and appearing in the classrooms opposite the block, waving frantically to a very stunned miss wong.
5. taking of funny videos during geography tutorials
6. being waken up by mr chen during geography lectures

man those were the days lah can.

sounds pretty extreme but i would give anything just for one more day to relive the memories

2006-12-29T20:51:00.000+08:00

life has been rather mudane albeit with the upcoming new year.

if not for the creditting of my pay today, it would have been an utterly sucky day--must had been eating too much sweet stuff, toothache's killing me! since i don't qualify for the stupid welfare dental scheme anymore, i'll probably have to fork out a huge sum of money for dental fees.

did i even mention TRANSPORT?!

i told you, shitty man.

and i've just been disabled form my google ads account, much to the disdain of someone.

2006-12-20T20:21:00.000+08:00

things that made me smile this week:

#1 chasing after buses with the boyfriend
#2 being given an umbrella by bus driver when its pouring at midnight
#3 eating my favourite ayam percik/madu at the pasar malam! (: (try it man. it's really good!)
#4 receiving/writing christmas cards
#5 enjoying the boyfriend's company at this restaurant called Werner's Oven at Siglap.
#6 going to ikea next saturday with my girls, lay and becka (finally an outing after so long!)
#7 knowing that im loved (:(:(:

2006-12-17T18:48:00.000+08:00

A levels have ended for more than a month already but i feel that i haven't really gotten a good rest or had fun enough! :(

..life is all about work, work and more work, contrary to what some of my mates have been saying about how they still can't find a job.

but i'm trying to see the positive side of things lah yeah? (:

oooh, i received becka's christmas card last night! it sure made my ~~day~~ night. ='.'= if you're reading this, t-h-a-n-k-s !

2006-10-13T14:36:00.000+08:00

Today marks the official last day of school in Meridian JC. Exchanging lil' gifts within ourselves and

..even with Miss Wong.

sigh. nostalgia

Much as i hate to admit this, but i'm actually kinda missing the fun, joyous school days without the worries of failing yet another test/exam

cam-whoring is fun fun fun~

photos will be up soon.

..like after alevels. haha

2006-10-04T12:24:00.000+08:00

i can't say that i'm happy with my grades but im glad there's some improvement.

thank God for that (:

2006-09-22T19:02:00.000+08:00

Prelims are over! And it's been a helluva fun time being busy with anything but studying. Went shopshop with becka, watched Miami Vice [Gong Li's damn hot!] and the Banquet with weixiang.

Just went to play some basketball, walked around Pasir Ris Park and played with some suuuuper cute ponies!

Can't can't can't wait for tomorrow's Sentosa outing!!

2006-08-31T14:42:00.000+08:00

im utterly sick of this mudane lifestyle

2006-08-25T17:37:00.000+08:00

a truckload full of memories that will accompany you for the rest of your life journey.

i never thought i would feel this way but i surprised myself today.

i will miss you guys badly

2006-08-17T22:45:00.000+08:00

my dad just pissed my mom off.

by putting a roast chicken drumstick into a pot of braised pork.

HAHA

2006-08-13T01:12:00.000+08:00

First and foremost, the 8 August entry is not that relevant to the rest of the class. Just some minor dispute not worth making a big hoo-ha over. My heartfelt gratitude to those who've expressed their concern and curiousity on fellow classmate's ~~blogs~~ tagboards.

Next, I admit my bitchiness got the better of me that night and I just had to type some nonsensical shite to get it out of my system. No intentions of hurting anybody. Trust me on this, okay?

Another noteworthy point would be that, that incident has never once came across my mind since that day. I seriously do not mean for it to sound so harsh. My sincere apologies for any feelings hurt

..and hopefully not, ruined friendships.

2006-08-10T13:54:00.000+08:00

national day 5 months and 5 days bras basah complex popular 20 stacks of fullscap bento zinger meal squeezed sore shoulders kallang river picnic hurried national stadium 2006 fireworks fantastic home fireworks again kallang mac packed rested house chatted home bimbim lala-land

yeay. i've beaten my personal best at solitaire. 7198

2006-08-08T22:44:00.000+08:00

so, our post-NDP celebration plans did not manage to be carried out
but it's ok (:

went out with the class today--nowhere far, only at tampines mall/century square area. not that i'm complaining

.. since i did not have, nor do i ever had the intention of watching a movie. furthermore i'm not really into the idea of watching a movie just for the sake of it anyway.

so there.

is it that hard to be tolerant and accepting towards other people?
if he/she has gotten on your nerves, i can understand.
not that i'm siding him
but i seriously don't think he has done anything to deserve that.

if you feel uncomfortable with his presence at lunch, God created mouths for a reason.

you just didn't have to pretend not to have received the sms

i've gotten my fair share of shit from other people
it's time to put a stop to it.

guess that's pretty much the reason for the bitchiness shown by yours truly

2006-08-06T01:06:00.000+08:00

Your Deadly Sins

Envy: 40%

Gluttony: 40%

Sloth: 40%

Greed: 20%

Lust: 20%

Pride: 20%

Wrath: 20%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 29%

You will die at the hands of a jealous lover. How ironic.

How Sinful Are You?

2006-07-31T22:37:00.000+08:00

im a happy girl today!

thankYOU for the gift.

loves.

2006-07-30T14:58:00.000+08:00

to sum up..

words that ran through my head this week:

sian stress bitch unfair biased sweet love study tutorial work tuition computer GP print sleepy badminton weixiang blog expensive calculator broke

2006-07-23T10:59:00.000+08:00

things are really insane around here.

see you if i see you

2006-07-19T16:38:00.000+08:00

" The surest way to success is to start now and don't give up; the surest way to fail is to just give up. Stop all negative thoughts, don't waste time on that."

-Miss Esther Lai

2006-07-15T13:20:00.000+08:00

I thank God that He let certain things happen and made me feel certain emotions.
I believe that He hopes that I'll grow through this.

..And I'm pretty sure I'll gain something.

2006-07-12T23:07:00.000+08:00

settled my eye appointment.

NICE HAIR CUT.

met a friend.

made a godbro.

met bf.

best thing?

NO SCHOOL

lastly,
a treat for the zidane fans (:

2006-07-11T22:33:00.000+08:00

a primary school Tutor has to

..ensure the kid has already learnt his spelling for the next week, the week after next..

..make sure he has no rubber bands by his side or else you will be kena shoot on the face.

..have suuuuuper high level of tolerance
imagine the scenario where the lil' boy slowly clears rubbish from his school bag, piece by piece, before finally yanking out the requested time-table

..keep that darned rubber band that somehow always ends up in his hands

..be persistant and keep on asking, asking and asking when is his spelling & dictation going to be on, and YET still not getting a satisfactory answer!
suddenly he has spelling & dictation on tuesday, wednesday and friday. go figure.

..be able to give a convincing answer of ''what is inside a correction fluid''

..maintain composure and continue talking and make sure he's listening when his attention is off, which occurs a bit too often.

i'm done for.

2006-07-09T23:45:00.000+08:00

For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord.
They are plans for good and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.
In those days when you pray, I will listen.
You will find me when you seek me, if you look for Me in earnest.

becka shared this meaningful verse with me and
i felt i ought to do the same and spread the message tonight. ((:

Indeed our Daddy King in heaven only wants nothing but the best for us
..But are we living our lives pleasing to Him? Being testimonies of His wondrous love to the people around us?

Never intended to give this blog entry such a solemn tone, but i just can't help feeling so.

2006-07-08T20:52:00.000+08:00

A Woman's Worth

By the time God made woman,
He was into his sixth day of working overtime.

An angel appeared and said, "Why are you spending so much time on this one?"
And God answered, "Have you seen my spec sheet on her?

She has to be completely washable, but not plastic, have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable and able to run on diet coke and leftovers, have a lap that can hold four children at one time, have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart and she will do everything- with only two hands.

Angel was astounded by the requirements"Only two hands!? No way! And that's just on the standard model? That's too much work for one day. Wait until tomorrow to finish."
"But I won't," God protested. "I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart." She already heals herself when she is sick AND can work 18 hour days."

The angel moved closer and touched the woman. "But you have made her so soft." "
She is soft," God agreed. "But I have also made her tough. You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish."

"Will she be able to think?", asked the angel.
God replied, "not only will she be able to think, she will be able to reason and negotiate."

The angel then noticed something, and reaching out, touched the woman's cheek. "Oops, it looks like you have a leak in this model. I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one."

"That's not a leak," God corrected, "that's a tear!"
"What's the tear for?" the angel asked. God said, "the tear is her way of expressing her joy, her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her love, her loneliness, her grief and her pride."

The angel was impressed. "You are a genius, God. You thought of everything! Woman is truly amazing."

And she is!

Women have strengths that amaze men.
They bear hardships and they carry burdens, but they hold happiness, love and joy.
They smile when they want to scream.
They sing when they want to cry.
They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous.
They fight for what they believe in.
They stand up to injustice.
They don't take "no" for an answer when they believe there is a better solution.
They go without so their family can have.
They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.
They love unconditionally.
They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards.
They are happy when they hear about a birth or a wedding.
Their hearts break when a friend dies.
They grieve at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left.
They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart.

Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors.
They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you to show how much they care about you.
The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning.
They bring joy, hope and love. They have compassion and ideals.
They give moral support to their family and friends.
Women have vital things to say and everything to give.

However, if there is a flaw in women, it is that they forget their worth.

2006-07-08T00:02:00.000+08:00

A picture says a 1000 words.

mug

have you mugged today?

DISCLAIMER: Author of blog is afflicted with an incurable disorder, typical of most meridians called stress. No pun intended for the illustrations. Thank you for the attention.

2006-07-06T22:15:00.000+08:00

i must have heard wrongly at today's Scholarship&Research Talk in the hall.

Miss Choo:'' What's wrong with a MERIDIAN going to HARVARD?"

you can post that question to the Lai.

..im sure she certainly has a piece of her mind to share regarding this controversial issue

today's encounter with the Lai in LT4 is not to be taken with a pinch of salt.

in the words of Miss Lai, we are the worst batch in four cohorts. word has been going around that we did really badly, (be prepared for this)-- for every subject.

on a lighter note,

let me share this highly insightful story, courtesy of becka

there was this lil' bird who was resting on a tree branch doing what lil' birds always do [don't think dirty you bugger!] -- standing around, chirp all day long, non-chalantly glancing around his surroundings.

one day, a rabbit came to this tree which the lil' bird was resting on and being a friendly creature, it asked the lil' bird, " what are you doing up there?"

the bird replied," hello hello. oh just looking around and doing nothing in particular. care to join me?"

glad to have found a friend who shares the same interest as itself, [read: slacking] the rabbit happily sat under the tree, enjoying the company of the lil' bird.

but good times don't last long, a hunter came by and shot the rabbit dead but the bird remained alive.

W H Y ?

moral of story: we have to be on top [like the lil' bird on the tree]

in order to be able to slack around, do nothing and..

survive!

(:

2006-07-04T14:45:00.000+08:00

math paper was insane, at least to me.

come to think of it, im so dead. guaranteed to have date with the Lai.

ackk.

on a lighter note,

becka gave me a lil' something before exam today..

meiji's CHOCOBABY!
((: thanks woman.

oh! and weeyang gave me a get-well card too!

what sweet friends i have X)

2006-07-01T02:26:00.000+08:00

here's a treat for those in need of a good laugh :D

ENJOY!

You say you're a big boy
But I can't agree 'Cuz the love you said you had
Ain't been put on me I wonder
If I'm just too much for you, wonder
If my kiss don't make you just wonder
What I got next for you, what you wanna do
Take a chance to recognize
That this could be yours

2006-06-27T20:13:00.000+08:00

steal some time to do some decent blogging.

i need a place to rant.

7 random things about me
1. im quite a perfectionist.
2. i tend to get easily affected.
3. my mood swings a tad too frequent
4. i dont wear heels too ((:
5. i hope to be a living testimony to others
6. i love to eat.
7. im quite random.

7 things that scare me
1. falling away from God
2. losing loved ones
3. not being good enough for others
4. losing something that is of much significance
5. the sense of loss when no. 4 happens
6. of not following my principles
7. cockroaches

7 random songs at the moment
1. beep- pussycat dolls
2. buttons- ''
3. till the end- april nine
4. promiscuous- nelly furtado
5. elmo's song
6. superwoman- cao ge
7. tears in heaven- eric clapton

7 Things I like Most
1. God
2. Weixiang
3. dark dark chocs
4. the feeling of being alive.. and HEALTHY
5. warm soyabean milk after a bath
6. taking long baths
7. cam-whoring

7 Things I say most
1. huh, really ah?
2. HAHA
3. wadde
4. hmph
5. heh.
6. thanks!
7. damn one kind leh

everything good comes from loving God

..and the rest will be ok (:

2006-06-24T21:18:00.000+08:00

A sentence from Rey's blog sums it up best.

''3 more days to wrap up everything for the mid years. I don't have the time now. Then, we start to wonder, what have we been doing the first 3 weeks.''

there's no turning back now

2006-06-19T12:53:00.000+08:00

7 Things that Made Me Smile this week
#1 secretary's testimonials-- short but sweet
#2 shopping with auntie ~~kelvin~~ kelly at NTUC
#3 seeing him (:
#4 morning walk at 0542 hours
#5 seeing Weixiang so flustered when i constantly win him in scissors-paper-stone
#6 the big grin on his face when he won me [read: f i n a l l y] in guessing game (cai quan)
#7 dozing off while watching soccer

today is monday
about a week more or so and it's back to school [everybody: aww]

..not to mention, EXAMS!

2006-06-16T11:14:00.000+08:00

i earned $72.50
..thanks to World Cup 2006

amount of $$ in account: negligible
courtesy of Great Singapore Sale 2006

2006-06-14T00:09:00.000+08:00

today's the first time me and becka go out!
YAY! town-ing rocks.

great. i sound like a typical bimbo.

that's not the point. the point is i had a helluva FUN time today.
bought many stuff for myself. ima happy girl. *jumps around*
was walking around and saw so much yumyum stuff that look visually appealing and sinfully satisfying. shall go back some other time and get it for..

((:

retail therapy was delightful.
pencil case(s), bags, socks, earrings, a purple RUBBISH BIN [ becka bought a similar one in blue colour ], postcard and cookies. (some surprise! shhh)

some funny stuff we came across today:
on a postcard in Borders: it sure took a lot of willpower.. but i finally gave up on dieting.
some random keychain in Action City: not all men are annoying.. some are already dead.

really enjoyed myself, although i lost one earring and annoyed becka by fussing over my eye a tad too much but everything's fine i think.

..shall commit everything in God's hands and count my blessings instead of whining over the whatever shite. x)

God is good all the time
..and all the time God is good :)

2006-06-12T22:30:00.000+08:00

life has been kinda lackluster lately. quite some stuff on my mind constantly nowadays and none of which is of any relevance to studies. HA!

been thinking of getting permanent (hard) lenses, hoping that those will be suitable for my condition. weeell. really hope God will make a way.

and.. ~~SOCCER~~ BETTING fever is now on!
i won 10 plus dollars only [ stop laughing you buggers ]

..but still, i have not incurred any losses so im HAPPY. yay ((:

more to come..

2006-06-09T17:42:00.000+08:00

In light of that has happened recently, I've come to realise the importance of making wise choices-- ones that don't come with dire consequences, leaving you feeling utmost regret and hopelessness 'cause nothing's gonna revert the situation back to what it was.

You see, if I've never made the darn mistake of wearing coloured contacts, the problem of bilateral dry eyes that im unfortunately born with wouldn't have been aggravated. I can continue to wear contact lens for convenience's sake, without worrying about my eyes being damn dry and causing redness. And have one less worry off my mind.

If only somebody had advised me or if I were smarter in the past, I would have saved myself of the unnecessary heartbreaks. Not to mention the time and effort spent in the relationships i had. I can't be sure that I'm wiser and more experienced in this arena and that everything between me and him will be smooth-sailing and end up, as quoted from the many fairy tales meant to psycho small young kids ''live happily ever after''. It takes two hands to clap, and ultimately we only live life once so do cherish your significant other.

To add on to the above, if I had used the time and effort and invested in my studies, I could have done much better than a mere 14 points and not end up in [Insert Hokkien Vulgar Word of Your Choice Here] meridian where the focal point of life seemed to be trying to pass every damn test and exam. Probably, I could have gone to my desired choice SAJC. (despite it being freaking far from my residence) Not that it's of significance anymore.

I hope you do see the significance of making smart and wise decisions. If not life will really get more and more and more screwed and don't wake up in the middle of the night to cry after you realised you idled your youth away.

At this point, you might ask what's the objective of this disgustingly long entry.

study hard for midyears lah!
unless you don't mind free tea sessions with The Lai who won't be very pleased with you for obvious reasons.

Work hard, my friends.

2006-06-08T23:38:00.000+08:00

the doctor prescribed me OPTODEXINE eye drops.

she emphasised fervently that im not supposed to use it while wearing contact lens. and that i can only use it for a week.

being the stupid girl i am, i still wore them.

it doesnt affect actually.

..but i realised i cant wear contact lens without those veins at the ends of my eyes being reddish and stuff.
geez

guess i really have to look for those low moisture content lens soon.
a slight consolation is that my new specs will be ready soon! X)

but still quite sian that i still must fuss over my eyes.
--do continue praying for me alright (:

amidst adversity, i shall not fear.
click here to find out why.

2006-06-06T23:51:00.000+08:00

got this from an email from rejini

Isn't it amazing that George Carlin - a mouthy comedian of the 70's and 80's
- could write something so very eloquent
..and so very appropriate

The paradox of our time in history is that
we have taller buildings but shorter tempers,
wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints.
We spend more, but have less,
We buy more, but enjoy less.
We have bigger houses and smaller families,
More conveniences, but less time.
We have more degrees but less sense,
More knowledge, but less judgment,
More experts, yet more problems,
More medicine, but less wellness.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life.
We've added years to life not life to years.
We've been all the way to the moon and back,
but have trouble crossing the street to meet a
new neighbor.
We conquered outer space but not inner space.
We've done larger things, but not better things.
We've learned to rush, but not to wait.
We build more computers to hold more information,
to produce more copies
than ever,
but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow
digestion,
Big men and
small character,
Steep profits and shallow
relationships.
These are the days of two incomes but more divorce,
Fancier houses, but broken homes.

These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers,
throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from
cheer, to quiet, to kill.
It is a time when there is
much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom.
A time when
technology can bring this
letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight,
or to just hit delete.

Remember, spend some time with your loved ones,
because they are not going to be around forever.

Remember, say a kind
word to someone who looks up to you in awe,
because that little person soon will grow up and
leave your side.

Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you,
because that is the only treasure you can give with
your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

Remember, to say, "I love you" to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it.
A kiss! and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.

Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.
Give time to love, give time to speak, and give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

HOW TO STAY YOUNG
1. Throw out nonessential numbers. This includes age, weight and
height. Let the doctor worry about them. That is why you pay him/her.

2. Keep only cheerful friends. The grouches pull you down.

3. Keep learning. Learn more about the computer, crafts, gardening, whatever. Never let the brain idle. "An idle mind is the devil's workshop." And the devil's name is Alzheimer's.

4. Enjoy the simple things.

5. Laugh often, long and loud. Laugh until you gasp for breath.

6. The tears happen. Endure, grieve, and move on!
The only person who is with us our entire life, is ourselves. Be ALIVE while you are alive.

7. Surround yourself with what you love, whether it's family, pets, keepsakes, music, plants, hobbies, whatever. Your home is your refuge.

8. Cherish your health: If it is good, preserve it.
If it is unstable, improve it.
If it is beyond what you can improve, get help.

9. Don't take guilt trips. Take a trip to the mall,
to the next county, to a foreign country, but NOT to where the
guilt is.

10. Tell the people you love that you love them, at
every opportunity.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we
take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

If you don't send this to at least 8 people.... who cares?

-George Carlin

2006-06-06T00:19:00.000+08:00

DISCLAIMER: SUPER LONG POST
..you've been warned.

the eye appointment at TTSH turned out better than expected.

first was the mundane registration procedure, followed by a vision and eye pressure test.

boy, the eye pressure test really freaked me out. i sat in front of this machine which looks somewhat like those used by opticians. and the nurse aimed at my eye and puffed air into my eye!

i jumped, literally. despite the fact that i knew what was coming.
well, sort of.

the other eye wasn't any better. i couldn't stop blinking and the nurse was rather amused and told me to stop blinking so she can aim properly but i cant.
..and thus the test took a slightly longer time for me than other people.

next was the consultation with the doctor. she put some eye drops to numb my eye and flipped my eyelid over to see if there's any infection.
CLUNK. im surprised my jaw didn't hit the table.

so ima wuss but hey! i cant help if im not that brave.

i had to take a test to check the moisture content of my eyes. some more eye-numbing drops were instilled again, leaving me quite giddy and heavy-headed. two paper strips were hooked onto my eyelids.

..and just like what the doctor expected, my eyes are super dry.
i.e the result of the test for normal eyes would have been 10mm but my readings are only 2mm and 3mm for my right and left eyes.

doc advised me to get lenses with low moisture content and if i have to wear the normal lens, i can't wear more than 6 hours without moisturising drops.

thank God im not turning blind or anything.

take care of your eyes, my friends.

colour your life
..you only live it once

(:

on a lighter note, met up with weixiang after my appointment.
nothing fancy or exciting, we went J8 only. *laughs

while walking around aimlessly in SEIYU. this lil girl with something white behind her caught our attention.

it's a balloon duck!
call me childish or what, but i was so fascinated.

just couldn't resist snapping a photo of the small girl and her duck.

she was just holding the duck and running around with it.

..kids these days

God has once again shown His love and mercy.

one obstacle down.
midyear's next.

remember, do your best and God will do the rest~

2006-06-04T22:23:00.000+08:00

tomorrow's my doctor appointment.

thanks to all who has wished me luck, comforted me in one way or another, put up with my constant rantings about my woes and worries.

everything will be fine i hope.

2006-05-29T12:03:00.000+08:00

You scored as Psychology. You should be a Psychology major!

Linguistics 100%
Theater 100%
Anthropology 100%
Journalism 100%
Psychology 100%
Dance 92%
Philosophy 83%
English 83%
Sociology 75%
Art 58%
Mathematics 50%
Engineering 17%
Chemistry 8%
Biology 8%

What is your Perfect Major? created with QuizFarm.com

..courtesy of amelia

2006-05-28T22:54:00.000+08:00

-----FEBRUARY BABY -----
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexiest out of everyone.Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble.Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted.Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt.Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp.Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

..don't say i didn't warn you. ^^

2006-05-28T13:16:00.000+08:00

nope you're not on the wrong page

this is still melanie's blog. x)
..hope this new skin is to your liking.

holidays has officially started. hurhur

plus point 1: can sleep in.
i.e sleep at 1am and wake up at 11 plus the next day and continue sleeping at noon all the way till 4pm; like yesterday. ((:

plus point 2: more time to brush up on my revision (supposedly)
kinda contradicts with above and below.

plus point 3: the time to go out, play and have fun!
i.e beaching, shopping, nua-ing around doing nothing

there's so many bad points that it's even depressing to think about 'em ):

on a lighter note, dont you think the small lil cat on the upper left corner of the page looks utterly adorable?
..click on it to play with it!

2006-05-23T11:34:00.001+08:00

i hereby declare that i've officially dropped general paper! (:
i wish

am in the library now, update my going-to-be stagnant blog and
..trying to finish the darned sampling assignment.

life's been really distracting. not in the 'i wanna watch american idol but i got my tutorials to complete!' way but the so many minor ailments that are bothering me all at one go.

sian.

first it was my eyes that never seem to recover fully from the annoying irritation/infection and thus i have to go to some specialist at TTSSH next month.

gaah

then.. my front tooth apparently decided to go against me as well and starts to hurt like hell since a week plus ago.
somehow or another i have to do some root canal treatment thingie which involves extracting out the nerves from the infected tooth so as to stop the pain
..but fate decided to play a beeeg joke on me and my appointment is like one month down the road. hmm

how nice.

went to a private dental clinic yesterday, wanting to end off this shite once and for all but the dentist there gave me some painkilers and advised me to wait for the treatment one month later which is free. ohwells :)

time for work.

2006-05-20T14:27:00.000+08:00

i've come to discover an utmost shocking thing yesterday.

there was weeping, harsh words flung at each other, etc.
..but thank God things did not go downhill from there. (:

im sorry for my very lousy handling of things. i know i should appreciate your honesty instead.
im more than confirmed now that things will definitely improve from now onwards.

2 months and 15 days and counting..

i got the not-so-subtle hint
hanah. for ong weixiang lahh.
(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:

2006-05-19T00:15:00.000+08:00

im not one who tears easily.

ok maybe quite.

i just heard the most moving stuff on earth
..and im the happiest girl now (:

thanks for the faith that i can do it. thanks for treating me as your no1. thanks for playing a fool with me in school. thanks for your kiddish ways that are so cute at times which

..makes me feel like the smartest girl around. HAHA x)

2006-05-06T14:24:00.000+08:00

life is still good, i guess ((:

thanks for the wonderful time spent with your family yesterday.
..watching teevee with your sisters was so so fun!

we are all cute and this is random x)

peeps will have noticed my newly-added accessory in school -- SPECS :(

*sigh

my poor lil' eyes have been struggling with minor infection for sometime already. wish me luck! x)

no tests next week! *cheers :D

enjoy the lovely weekend

2006-05-03T21:50:00.000+08:00

i hate to think like this. really.

..but i have the most incorrigible teachers around. it must be fate's way of playing with my backside since i was such a annoying student x years ago.

weeell.. 'xcuse me for being late like 3 times. im so sorry that you have to waste 28cents calling my residence to report to my mother about my lousy attitude.

it's you teachers who make coming to school a chore. seriously

so YOU think im not driven.

when i dont sleep during tutorials/lectures anymore
when i do clarify my doubts
when i actually start doing my tutorials

..when i try not to stop my confidence level from fading to sheer insignificance due to smartass remarks from people like YOU.

so YOU think a classmate of mine who sleeps during class to be driven but im NOT. just because he produces results and i dont.

and i beg to differ for that matter, it's not like im not trying. get that you numskulled tootsie

2006-05-01T10:21:00.000+08:00

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2006-04-30T15:52:00.000+08:00

we finally went on a date! X)
to..SENTOSA!

it's my silly boy's birthday yesterday and was invited to an outing with him, cecelia, zhijun, kaiyan, if fa. leticia came by a while after too.

had sooo much fun. these people are really a bundle of joy. x) all the jokes and lame stuff said on the way there.. woots~

played beach vball..went kayaking with him too! saw some 'immigrants' on the offshore island shooting some 'MTV' (ha. if you know what i mean). water war with each other. snapping some not-so-decent photos (the girls of course!)

mass soaking in the water till our finger's wrinkled!

followed by a nice nice dinner at pastamania. yumms.
the works.

let's go out again soon. x))
..and im so glad you liked the present(s)
i <3 you

2006-04-26T23:04:00.000+08:00

first of all, would like to thank you for being there today, constantly entertaining me greatly with your musings about certain HOT-looking J1s, sharing your yummy fries with me, being my pillar of support all these while, and my listening ear too! x) it would have been hard to go through everything that has happened if i didn't know i had you there who share the same sentiments with me. thanks sho much.

on the contrary,
some of the stuff i heard today just made me wanna smile with sadness and cry with joy. i finally experience the true harsh reality.

thanks.

im not trying to point fingers here, neither am i making noise after everything is over. in fact, i truly know nuts what i can say to salvage the already pathetic situation. we can only have ourselves to blame for what has happened.

and before pointing out the mistakes of others, why hasn't it occur to us to reflect on ourselves.

do you not ever pretend you never see some people?
..or how about not even attempting to stand up for that someone when she's being criticised?
the not-so-discrete division of the team into various cliques?

yesh. i can see some ~~team spirit~~
how can we get anywhere like this?

let's just say someone doesnt really command any respect.
what do you gain from giving harsh criticisms?
n-o-t-h-i-n-g

maybe you do get natural highs from shooting people when they are demoralised.
who are YOU to judge whether they've done their best a not

to YOU their best is never enough. and it never will be.

my apologies.

2006-04-25T19:14:00.000+08:00

taken from becka's blog cause im too lazy to type.. *sheepish smile*

Today, we did something which was the ultimate (so far..)! =)

Cause our class F4-2 right.. so meow mel suggested that we go to the class across ours.. which is E4-5 i think.. haha. so we went in there.... then REY called Ms wong..
and the conversation was something like this:

REY: Ms Wong, where are you?
Ms Wong: I'm in class already. Where are you all?
REY: WE also in class already!!
Ms Wong: HUH (disbelievingly).....???**
At this point in time, Ms wong gets up... went outside the classroom and ACTUALLY Checked if she was in the right classroom!!!!
hahahahahaha!! Funny sia!! Then we called her and started waving to her from across which is only less than 10m away!!!
haha. so funny la. all 8 of us laughed like mad.
haha. should have videotaped it all down!
heh heh heh. super funny. =)

waiting for next tuesday! =P

heh. most hilarious prank so far. watch out for more tricks from yours truly!
..next tuesday. same time. same place x)

2006-04-23T01:06:00.000+08:00

a friend of mine relayed a message to me on behalf of his somewhat good friend

''FUCK OFF AND DIE"

not exactly the most kind things you can ever say to anyone, especially someone whom im sure do not have the slightest idea, on let's say how even to spell my name?

bah.

you tell me i did nothing wrong, it's just the distinguished relationship i have with him that allowed me the honour of being requested to fulfil what is stated above. how nice.

no. this is bad
i shan't allow myself to make the mistake of even allowing that nincompoop and his words to affect me. vulgarities are simply too mediocre to even be used to label that jackass.

two wrongs wont make a right.

so what if we do come out to settle? what's there to talk about?
..YOU will only make me want to stuff some cactus up your asshole, as if you even own one.

..YOU will only make me feel sad for this pathetic world that, our society will be even more screwed up with such a sorry ass like you that even amoebas will run away when they sense your omnipotence approaching from the far ends of the earth.

pui.

yeah go on blabbering. best if you take some damned parang and hunt me down. all the better. dont need to take A's.

you watch out. i'll get you someday.

..God will get you even if i don't.

2006-04-22T21:55:00.000+08:00

' EVERY CLOUD HAS A SILVER LINING '

.. no matter how dark it gets! i know that you have it in you to see it through!
KEEP TRYING! KEEP SHINING! KEEP SMILING!
my very best wishes are always with you.

awww. isn't that sweeeet x)
im happy once more! *grins

thankew sho much ((:

2006-04-21T22:23:00.000+08:00

today's been a really bad day for me. shall not talk about it anymore but im so glad for the peeps who've been there to lend me a shoulder to lean on.. many thanks =)

to a certain silly peep
..you were there with an umbrella and a shoulder to lean on. never thought that just with an arm around me i will feel so much better. hope i didnt scare you too much with my outburst and thanks for not giving up in making me laugh, listening to my never-ending whines

and most importantly, for treating me with such care that i didn't know i deserve.the days ahead of us will be tough but i believe when the going gets tough, the tough gets going too. and i know we will be able to pull through this..together (:

thanks becka for calling me and making me feel soooooo much better. God must have known that you could cheer me up and thus arranged for you to call me. heh. HUGS. buddy, although i always poke fun of you [ literally! ], hiding your pencil case and bag.. you always tolerated me and my ongoing insanity. always saying the same old stuff

..just because you care for this silly friend of yours. words cant explain the immense gratitude and joy i experience in having known someone like you and i know we will be with each other in our old age, still poking each other despite the risk of breaking each other's bones. kudos me HOT cutie x)
loves.

2006-04-19T21:21:00.000+08:00

these keep me going in life.
..what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger~ (:

2006-04-17T21:31:00.000+08:00

hahahaha! ive gotten myself spectacles as i got some eye infection during the weekend

no. i wasn't watching anything dirty. =/

will be wearing specs to mjc for the first time.
..i haven't wore specs to school since o levels lahh!!

hmmm.

tml is the first match mjvb will be playing.
opponent: HCI

well, just play to your best and im sure there will be no regrets.

i was kinda expecting the whole process to be very boring and stuff but andy told me he'll be going!!

YAY. that'll be something to look forward to.

chem spa beckons. hope tml i will have time to complete everything.shall not be complacent about it.

all the best to all of you out there! x))

good night world

2006-04-14T14:48:00.000+08:00

today is good friday.

and yes as taken from becka's blog.. to remember the day that Jesus Christ died on the cross for US.

..yes YOU and ME.

and no doubts about it, it IS a day to be thankful.

kudos to the One up there, my Daddy King for sending His Son to die for us to atone for A-L-L our sins. without Him in my life, 18 years of my life would have been lived in vain and God knows what i would have become already. thanks for the miracles you've performed, thanks for letting me be in touch with Your Word right from the start of my days in kindergarten.

thanks for all my good friends, my wonderful classmates, for all the happy and nasty times shared together. thanks for letting me to be able to stay on in mj and for all the encouragements showered on me from all over~ x))

..and for the best boyfriend ever. ='.'= the days ahead of us might be rocky and our feelings might be put to test again and again. but i believe God knows best and He will make a way out for us. lub you~ *patpat

this special entry is dedicated to a special classmate, a good buddy, fellow sister in Christ: thank you becka for your support since day 1. thanks for not giving up on this silly friend of yours. thanks for always always being there to listen to my nonsensical rantings.

happy good friday everybody.

2006-04-12T19:05:00.000+08:00

heh. im back.

'twas reaally disheartening the past few days or so.
..plus the fact that i never really did any work for the weekend. only studied abit.[as if that's of any help for my chem test (tues) at all]

did i mention i conveniently couldnt wake up on monday night, despite 12 miss calls within a time frame of 45 mins and my mother waking me up 5-6 times?

AND i think i set my alarm. HA what a joke.
and so there goes my chem test. i deserve to flunk as i didnt practise. boohoo.

BUT
..gone are days like these. im not gonna falter and let anything pull me apart.
im so gonna beat this.
i know i will.

had this major dispute with him yesterday. i thought things were pretty much going to get better until i realised that our differences were inevitable.

i couldnt take it. sorta broke down and talked to becka and kelvin.
<3 you all lots. thanks for being there for me. i needed that sooo much. really as for us, i have to admit im not sure if i can continue and be happy despite all our differences.. but becka sent me this and im pretty sure it's a sign from the Big Guy up there

Trust in the Lord with all your heart
And lean not on your own understanding
In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight.

Wait on the Lord, Be of good courage
And He shall strengthen your heart
For the Lord your God will hold your right hand,
Saying unto thee, Fear not,
i will help thee.

i pray that no matter what happens, i will stay strong in You. and i believe You will provide a way out.

2006-04-02T13:11:00.000+08:00

1.) you accidentally enter your password on a microwave.

2.) you haven’t played solitaire with real cards in years.

3.) the reason for not staying in touch withyourfriends is that they don’t havemsn/xanga/myspace/friendster.

4.) you’d rather look all over the house for the remote instead of just pushing the button onthe tv.

6.) your evening activity is the computer.

7.) you read this list, & keep nodding andsmiling.

8.) as you read this list, you think about howstupid you are to read this.

9.) and… you were too busy to notice number 5.

10.) you actually scrolled back up to check thatthere was a number 5.

11.) & now you’re laughing at your stupidity.

12.) repost if you fell for it. you know you did..

2006-03-31T22:53:00.000+08:00

when you have reached the bottom... you have only one way left... and that is to go UP. keep fighting on. don't give up!

taken from becka's blog. found it highly insightful.
especially for me.

there are some sacrifices i have to make and im glad God used this to make me realise what i really want in life.

im so grateful to the One up there. (:

not forgetting him.
thanks for making me feel better today. thanks for.. heh. you know what.

to digress a bit.. reyneth said the most peculiar thing during GP lesson today.

Rey: i think something bit my nipple. sudden pain sia. *peers*
Me: ...
Rey: ..right one!

2006-03-29T00:31:00.000+08:00

Instructions: The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lovers. Specify the gender of the target. Tag 5 victims to join this game and leave a comment on their page saying that they've been tagged. If tagged the 2nd time, there's no need to post again.

The perfect guy must..:
1. love me.
2. filial
3. want to take care of me
4. sporty
5. witty. thinks fast
6. loves to eat
7. loves kids
8. loves cats
9. knows how to relax and have fun
10. hardworking-motivates me to study too. [copied from amelia cause im too lazy to type (:]
11. decisive. i hate making decisions ty
12. outspoken
13. well-liked by most
14. no smoking/clubbing
15. no MCPS
16. romantic ppl-- i like

the 5 people who i wanna them to do this are:
1. reyneth
2. jasmine!
3. rebecca
4. shuzhen
5. any other peep

2006-03-29T00:21:00.000+08:00

i realise im not that happy sometimes.
i realise what i thought will last might not last afterall.
i realise im actually of lesser worth than what i think i had.

..i realise im talking nonsense.

seriously. fuck jc life backside.

i cant even give a heck about how people will think that im just having another one of my moodswings and here i am again, ranting about my nonexistant nonsensical problems. if you belong to this category, do your eyes and your sanity a favour and stay far far away from this page.

see? im not being myself.

bahhh. you know how it feels sometimes when you thought you can fall back on something/someone but it's actually no difference from being alone and managing your emotions well enough so as not to be the topic of discussion anywhere.

..or rather to put on a facade that everybody thinks your obnoxiously happy and living ina world of your own all the time.

its tiring man. trying to maintain that.

fuck this.im talking rots.

goodnight world

2006-03-25T12:21:00.000+08:00

i didnt do so well for block tests. it was really really bad. average doesnt even come close. i mean it. im pretty stoic about this whole ordeal. trying not to think about the results as what izzat put it when trying to console me, be thankful it's just block tests.

..rather bad to think of it this way but i guess it's the only way out in order not to be demoralised and affect my mood.

faith. trust. confidence. belief.
thanks for the words you told me. thanks for not mocking me. thanks for believing that i can do it. thanks for making an effort to know my friends. thanks for being so understanding. thanks for teaching me maths last night..migrating from under void deck, library and finally pasir ris macs. thanks for being my pillar of strength and most importantly, thanks for not giving up on me.

i will really give my best this time. really

2006-03-21T23:30:00.000+08:00

its math tml.

was just talking to reyneth about A's just now while studying. everything seemed so bleak lah. i dont mean to dampen the mood of anyone of you reading this but haish.. just a phase i guess. =/

ohya ive been having this really bad toothache since saturday. bahhhh :(

ivan: har.. what if must pluck out? eeee. then must put dentures *peers*
Me: ..thanks.

2006-03-17T03:12:00.000+08:00

just reached home. was studying at macs till 3. im dead beat. my eyeballs feel glued to my contact lenses and im all sore.

went to marine parade library to study with rey who was there the whole afternoon with ken liew and his two other ex-classmates: houying and diya.

not very productive leh. either munching on snacks or gossiping!
..tsk.

im sorry for the unhappiness caused and im sooooooooo glad things are better now. <3>

hmmm. have training at 0830 later and gonna study with yvonne after that.

..and im not a muggah please. im just trying to salvage the shite situation im in before i sink in too much. ty

goodnight world.

2006-03-14T11:41:00.000+08:00

The English Language

Have you ever wondered why foreigners have trouble with the English Language?Let's face it

English is a stupid language.
There is no egg in the eggplant
No ham in the hamburger
And neither pine nor apple in the pineapple.
English muffins were not invented in England
French fries were not invented in France.
We sometimes take English for granted
But if we examine its paradoxes we find that
..Quicksand takes you down slowly
..Boxing rings are square
..And a guinea pig is neither from Guinea nor is it a pig.

If writers write, how come fingers don't fing.
If the plural of tooth is teeth
Shouldn't the plural of phone booth be phone beeth
If the teacher taught,Why didn't the preacher praught.
If a vegetarian eats vegetables
What the heck does a humanitarian eat!?
Why do people recite at a play Yet play at a recital?
Park on driveways and
Drive on parkways
You have to marvel at the unique lunacy
Of a language where a house can burn up as
It burns down
And in which you fill in a form
By filling it out
And a bell is only heard once it goes!
English was invented by people, not computers
And it reflects the creativity of the human race(Which of course isn't a race at all)
That is why
When the stars are out they are visible
But when the lights are out they are invisible

And why it is that when I wind up my watch
It starts
But when I wind up this observation, It ends.

13/03/06 23:00
this is a turning point for you im sure. and i hope you wont feel regrets. with that first step you took, im sure it will be a giant leap for us.

yepp. im certain.

2006-03-12T10:35:00.000+08:00

Dominant Traits

62% of people think that 3iNV73W is friendly

All Percentages
able (7%) accepting (14%) adaptable (11%) bold (25%) brave (3%) calm (0%) caring (25%) cheerful (37%) clever (3%) complex (11%) confident (0%) dependable (11%) dignified (0%) energetic (33%) extroverted (29%) friendly (62%) giving (3%) happy (14%) helpful (14%) idealistic (7%) independent (7%) ingenious (0%) intelligent (3%) introverted (0%) kind (3%) knowledgeable (0%) logical (0%) loving (11%) mature (7%) modest (7%) nervous (0%) observant (3%) organised (0%) patient (0%) powerful (0%) proud (3%) quiet (3%) reflective (14%) relaxed (7%) religious (0%) responsive (7%) searching (3%) self-assertive (14%) self-conscious (3%) sensible (7%) sentimental (25%) shy (7%) silly (18%) spontaneous (18%) sympathetic (0%) tense (3%) trustworthy (22%) warm (22%) wise (0%) witty (14%)

Description Breakdown (27 people)
jiemei thinks: intelligent, kind, idealistic, sensible, able.
shuz thinks: cheerful, accepting, dependable, friendly, sentimental, warm.
some! thinks: shy, silly, quiet, proud, tense.
Di Di thinks: trustworthy, caring, brave, friendly, warm, accepting.
SuHui thinks: friendly, dependable, extroverted, warm, helpful.
jonjon thinks: sentimental, extroverted, energetic, witty, friendly, silly.
Fei Ting thinks: cheerful, spontaneous, witty, friendly, warm, extroverted.
darren thinks: cheerful, friendly, loving, reflective, independent, helpful.
bloodcrest thinks: caring, happy, friendly, trustworthy, complex.
dira thinks: warm, modest, caring, friendly, helpful, spontaneous.
rejini thinks: reflective, able, accepting, adaptable, bold, modest.
caroline thinks: happy, cheerful, friendly, relaxed, bold, complex.
hafiz thinks: friendly, idealistic, reflective, sentimental, cheerful, warm.
Zuo Yi thinks: caring, independent, cheerful, sentimental, energetic.
air-de thinks: bold, giving, friendly, loving, energetic.
Wani thinks: extroverted, bold, responsive, caring, witty, sentimental.
IZZATZAT thinks: self-assertive, trustworthy, mature, dependable, friendly, caring.
anee thinks: spontaneous, cheerful, energetic, trustworthy, sensible, mature.
uGin thinks: extroverted, accepting, loving, trustworthy, sentimental.
!melia thinks: caring, cheerful, relaxed, trustworthy, friendly, energetic.
pinky thinks: friendly, shy, cheerful, happy, energetic.
fiona thinks: extroverted, responsive, adaptable, friendly, self-assertive.
Andy thinks: complex, energetic, searching, self-assertive, spontaneous.
rey thinks: bold, extroverted, energetic, happy, adaptable, observant.
wan thinks: bold, energetic, friendly, witty, silly, reflective.
beckaaaa thinks: cheerful, extroverted, silly, spontaneous, bold, self-assertive.
ivan thinks: silly, sentimental, helpful, clever, friendly, self-conscious.

2006-03-12T00:19:00.000+08:00

here's a lil' treat x))

TA-DAH.

for some reason, i was reminded of God's covenant with us. and rekindled the faith that He provides a way out, no matter what.

the rainbow appeared when i was feeling sian while studying and it really made my day. X)

2006-03-11T11:51:00.000+08:00

tralala. x)

mjc orientation ii was simply a turning point for me, and im sure for many others too. SARGUS GOT FIRST! :) [callisto's 'adopted' house] well done people~
the house which ive been in ever since i stepped into mj-- REGULUS.. GOT 4th! :))
isn't that just fantastic? from last, they fought and they fought hard. and from last they managed to get 4th. to all reggie peeps: you all have done well!

10/03/06 20:18
the words that came out of your mouth im sure were spoken from your heart. i appreciate it. really =)) have never felt this way with anyone else and im glad God sent you into my life. i hope im the one for you till the end.

you know who you are
its ok that you can't look at him in the eye
he's not angry and no reason for me to be even angry at all.
dont worry, we're buddies still. =]
he knows you need time and always telling me he's really not affected
..for fear of ruining our ship.

meanwhile let's just take things as they come alright? and i sincerely hope i can see you two smile at each other once more x))

2006-03-09T22:19:00.000+08:00

yay. things are finally better.

ive said all ive wanted to say with those smses and im glad God allowed us not to part on unhappy terms. our ship wont sink like titanic.
..if all else fails, we can always kayak. *grins

all these precious moments, with you by my side
must be a gift from heaven..

i wont let you suffer for nothing.

2006-03-06T21:33:00.000+08:00

things will always turn out fine.. somehow (:

if you are reading this, yes im happy. though there are times when i pass by certain landmarks and i'll be reminded of the memories we once owned but dont worry i wont look back. sorry to have wasted your time all along. i hate to say this but i learnt my lesson the hard and painful way. thanks.

monster :)) im lovin' it

2006-03-05T11:19:00.000+08:00

The rules:
Bold the statements that are true to you
Italise the statements that you WISH are true
Leave the Fibs alone
Then, stab 5 guys to do the same test.

I miss somebody right now.
I dont watch TV these days.
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor evrywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really,really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way i look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single!
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop then eat.
I don't hate anyone.I dislike them.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
I have dated a close friends's ex.
I am happy at this moment!!
I'm obsessed with guys.
Democrat.
I am punk rockish.
I am preppy.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausage.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk(swear) in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsesical, the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie

stabbed by mel:
1. reyneth
2. rebecca
3. jonathan
4. amelia
5. anybody else

2006-03-05T11:05:00.000+08:00

its funny how when things go wrong. you start to be more aware of the other people around you?

many thanks to weixiang, wanying, andy, edmund, weeyang, amelia, eugene for all your concern and encouragement.

i wont be here if not for you guys.

2006-03-05T00:56:00.000+08:00

thanks.

for always ensuring i dont go around with an empty stomach
for accompanying me watch dou yu in sucha warm and nice way
for laughing at my disco quacks though you dont do that anymore
for always believing in me or at least i thought so
for lending me your shoulders to cry on..even if it was once only
for entertaining me when i v wu liao
for helping me with my carbonyl tutorials
for jogging with me.
for being my loanshark when i go on shopping spree
for being my fashion consultant

..thanks for letting me learn the lesson of giving and not expecting anything in return

i hope i wont stay like that for too long.

you know i just want you to be happy.

2006-02-26T23:33:00.000+08:00

i have been missing for too long.

haha~ went to watch Final Destination 3 with him just now.
bahhh.

damn gross. end of story.

i dont wanna start thinking about it.

..yesh even im not that tough minded to take that kinda gore. =//

2006-02-23T23:36:00.000+08:00

Extroverted. Sensing. Feeling. Perceiving.

- live in the moment; find enjoyment in people, food, clothes, animals, the natural world and activities.
- observant.
- learn more from doing than studying.
- practical, realistic and specific.
- active, generous, optimistic, persuasive.
- warm, sympathetic, tactful.
- strong appreciation of the beauty and the aesthetics.

* may get caught up in the interactions of the moment
* decisions may be limited to a desire for sensory satisfaction
* distracted and overly impulsive
* trouble with accepting and meeting deadlines
* over-personalising others' actions and decisions

2006-02-20T23:37:00.000+08:00

DANGER!

Bausch&Lomb ReNu Multi-Purpose Solution

MOH advises against use of ReNu contact lens solution for time being

The Health Ministry has advised contact lens users to stop using the Bausch and Lomb's ReNu multi-purpose contact lens solution for the time being, as a precautionary measure.

This is until the causes of the recent increase in fungal eye infections among contact lens users can be more clearly ascertained.

Investigations it conducted together with the Health Sciences Authority and the Singapore National Eye Centre (SNEC) reveal 18 of the 19 patients reported by the SNEC had used the product.

The findings also showed all 18 patients used disposable contact lenses. These lenses ranged from daily disposable lens to monthly disposable lens and came from a variety of manufacturers.
While findings so far indicate association rather than cause, the Ministry said that in view of the potentially serious visual consequences of fungal corneal infection, it would be prudent for contact lens users to discontinue using the solution for the time being.

It said further investigations are underway to establish the cause of the infection.

i only just realised i have been using this solution after i went to take a second look at it. *gasps

hmmm.

as of late, i really felt some discomfort.

dryness of eyes; blurry vision; redness around the eyeball !

being the 'chap-siao' [heck care] person i am, did i bother to have my eyes checked? did i make sure i have cleaned my lenses sufficiently??

NO ):

..and i have like 3 bottles of that ReNu solution at home lahh -.-

whaaat tehh feuk.

2006-02-19T22:13:00.000+08:00

click here -> my quiz

hey peeps. got this off lyndsey's blogg.

humour me and complete it x))

2006-02-19T19:03:00.000+08:00

4 more days to the big day.

..i pray that it will be a turning point for me--in my studies, relationship with God, my family, friends and of course, him.

sassy 18.

woots~

my mama makes nice peanut soup.

its orgasmic.

ladeedah.

2006-02-17T22:17:00.000+08:00

i can safely say that..

IT'S A HELLUVA GREAT TRAINING SESSION TODAY.

things to be happy about:
1. my spiking footwork is relatively better
2. the balls i spike dont travel so high up anymore, well some
3. i dont think my receiving is that bad, at least for today.

i got a whole lot of things to thank God for.

im damn high now.

on a lighter note, weikang is really a very very very funny yakking partner.
all the bitching with him, reyneth, jonnie and sunny, and also janice and wanwan.

whoo~

more next time.

2006-02-15T21:37:00.000+08:00

thanks for the lilies and vday and birthday presents.

love em loads. really really (:
they make the rest of my week
..while waiting to see you again on sat.

yay.

hughug. kishkish x)
[ quoted from hafiz ]

2006-02-13T23:16:00.000+08:00

had some last min shopping for valentines' day gifts for 05S401 peeps and some others.

first was with jonnie, reyenth and weikang in the afternoon during the 3 free periods.
omg. jonnie and weikang really damn funny can. words cant express their horribly lame antics/words.

second trip was after dismissal with becka. i merely told her i had an urge to hold her hand while shopping down the aisle of ntuc and she immediately retreated 3 steps away from me!! so so mean!! =/

becka was teaching me the do's and dont's of... hahaa. shall see how it turns out ^^

2006-02-12T22:36:00.000+08:00

you complete me. you make me feel like there's more to life than just getting pissed over teachers who put you down and not being able to perform well in a game.

and all i did was to say horrible stuff i dont even mean.

im sorry.

i probably said it too many times already.

i really dont deserve anything nice for all the shite i have given you.

i should just let myself be exiled to the ends of the earth.

2006-02-11T17:39:00.000+08:00

girl facts.

when a girl is quiet, millions of things are running through her mind.

when a girl is not arguing, she is thinking deeply.

when a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions, she is wondering how long you will be around.

when a girl answers, "I'm fine," after a few seconds, she is not at all fine.

when a girl stares at you, she is wondering why you are so wonderful.

when a girl lays on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

when a girl calls you everyday, she is seeking for your attention.

when a girl wants to see you everyday, she wants to be pampered.

when a girl says, "I love you," she means it.

when a girl says that she can't live without you, she has made up her mind that you are her future.

when a girl says, "I miss you,"no one in this world can miss you more than that.

to whom it may concern,

i know that the past week has been a trying time for us. i admit i flared up at you at times when it's nothing big. im sorry. i only hope you will not bear grudges against me. seems after we got together, there's nothing but ugly memories. i really really want things to go back to the way they were. when you were doing silly diabetic sweet stuff and you constantly amused with my lame antics

let this be a turning point for us now alright?

2006-02-09T23:40:00.000+08:00

chrissy chen.

ready to ~~kick~~ poke some ass.

geog tutorials keep me sane in school. =]

ironic but it's true.

2006-02-09T20:49:00.000+08:00

jang jang jang jang.

mr chua, miss wong call me mel.

now mrs chua calls me -lanie. -.- some husband and wife ah. one mel one lanie.

as usual, mr chen never seems to run out of silly things to criticise me. haa

he calls me silly woman.

how very affectionate.

i think me, rey and jonnie bully becka too much.

but its ok man

..i think she likes it. :D

haa. we took her bag. or rather i took her bag and passed it behind our chairs down the entire table in geog room. hahah

took her rather long to realise her bag's missing.

she was smacking me real hard when she realised its absence lahh. hmph

some fun at the later part of the labourious day we had..

me and rey were talking about it.

its our 4th or 5th loooong thursday so far..
but we're still not used to it!

pffts.

ooooh. me and becka have this new name. baobao~*scratches ear. *grins

im afraid i will not be able to keep the promise i made to you.
it's for my own good no doubt.
but..

will you change your perspective of me after you know what im about to do??

2006-02-06T20:51:00.000+08:00

You Are Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough Ice Cream

A classic and an original, no wonder everyone snakes your style!

What Flavor Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream Are You?

2006-02-05T01:22:00.000+08:00

whenever life seems to drift you away from me, i can't help but cry.

you've grown to be such a part of me that without you,
life is no more than just a desperate sigh.

they did say love does come and go, and to that i disagree.

so, here's my hand,
take it and don't let go.

..please.

2006-02-01T22:37:00.000+08:00

Name five of life's simple pleasures that you like most, then pick five people to do the same.
Try to be original and creative and not use things that someone else has already used.

1) breathing.
2) hugging someone reaaaaaalllly tightly
3) cold milo after a long run
4) doing silly antics that make people laugh. [disco quacks :) ]
5) knowing that Someone up there is in control of everything that goes on in your life

And i tag:
1) reyneth
2) jonathan
3) becka!
4) & 5) whoever else who reads this blog

2006-02-01T22:14:00.000+08:00

road race's on friday! cant wait for it to be over.
it's my first competitive track event. haa.
hope i dont screw up.

..with the non-existent stamina i have, it's gonna be a helluva long run. =[

had fun during training today. the J1s are just sooo cute. heh.
spiked some lousy balls.. ackk.

this is quoted from alvin in a msn conversation:

[[ a l vi n- ]]` -disfcuktional. says:
but ur balls so cool, it slides off at an angle.

i dont have any balls for nuts. no pun intended :D

hmm. tomorrows a long day. shall press on.

..cause weekend's gonna be here soon~

2006-01-31T00:00:00.000+08:00

so new year is over..
not much gains but its ok. =]

ooh. i just got my paycheck too. x))

just realised.. i dont talk to the people whom i often talk to anymore.

thank God for those who are still there. always

laykim. becka! weeyang.. caspar [jiemei!] and some.

<3 you all.

you too. x)) i know you will always carry me home, if i fall.

..though i will love you more if you dont comment on my weight.

kidding. and im not fat lah can. =D

2006-01-26T23:32:00.000+08:00

i cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno't mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae.

The rset can be a taotl mses and yhou can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef ,but the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuuhot slpeling was ipmorantt!

some cool thing on friendster bulletin.

lte em tyr. ahaha. ist os nfu. i alos cna tpye lkie thta.